Berjaya! Syusyi!

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Oyeah!!! Akhirnya berjaya jua. Terlepas rasa frust akibat terbuburnya nasi sushi beberapa hari yang lepas. Kali ini beras yang ditanak berjaya mengekalkan tahap kenasiannya. Buat dengan penuh berhati2 sebab taknak membazir bahan kalau tak jadi. Dan inilah hasilnya he he he... (bayangkan muka shinchan yang syok sendiri dengan pipi yang kemerahan). Seasoning nasi ialah DIY (Do-It-Yourself), cuka+garam+gula yang dibuat secara manual sebab tak jumpa seasoning PTU (Pay-Then-Use) hahaha...(yang beli kat kedai ler).

Dulu gulung sushi secara bongok dan improvised, iaitu menggunakan pelapik buluh untuk cawan yang kecik dan tidak mampu menampung besar sekeping nori (seaweed) itu. Yala, dah tak jumpa penggulung buluh spesel untuk buat sushi, yang macam dalam gambar ni:

terpaksalah ganti dengan benda lain. Janji boleh makan dan melepaskan diri dari genggaman kempunan sushi. Dulu masa mula-mula try guna nasi biasa je, 'pecah2' la jugak bila potong sushi tu. Guna inti telur + timun + crabstick. Lepas tu ada try guna fishcake (konon2 kreatif la) tapi bluerghh...rasanya kureng....

Akhirnya kali ini berjaya menggulung sushi dengan memuaskan! Rasa gembira cam dapat angpau besar...(Ehem. Mentang2 Chinese New Year dah dekat....)

Tadaadapompompomtararampam! Yearghhhhhhh~~~ *fist in the air* Vekkkthoreeyyy!!! (Victory dilaungkan dengan mulut yang penuh dan bersembur2 nasi)

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Ehem. Capcapcap....cicah ngan light soy sauce. *makan secara 100% ladylike*

Ask Too Little, Stop Like A Dead End

'Ask too little, stop like a dead end'. That's a phrase borne out of a pissed moment that came as sudden as an unpredicted tsunami.

You ever had someone texting you asking a direct question then just stop texting without some form of warning or indication like a dead end? And it happen again and again and again? Tell me you've never experienced that and I'll say, lucky you, sweetheart. 

Yeah I'll admit that maybe I'm overreacting. Hey, there are times when we try not to be judgemental and go 'conclusion-jumping' but when it's been going on long enough, we can't help but wonder if there's something that we miss. Of course many people had done this ask too little then stop like a dead end thing, including me, duh, but like I said, sometimes the circumstances are too fishy to be ignored.

The questions are straight up basic, direct to the point...o-kay. But to leave the greeting hanging just like that leaves the impression that you've got what you want, you're satisfied, so never mind if you kick us to the curb now...not only can it come across as disrespectful (omg you think i deserve no respect? surprise, surprise) but also downright insincere. You don't want no niceties and such, okay, we understand that maybe your time is too precious to be wasted on the likes of us. But if it is really truly bothersome to add the three letter word 'bye' or even two letter sentence 'c u' or. At least. The. Word. 'K' (as in ok) to your messages, why even bother to text in the first place? Might as well don't, you'll rid yourself of a textpocalypse.

I'm not surprised if you're confused. Right now I'm probably as confused as you are, but life's too short and I think I couldn't care less (in a few more minutes). The way I see it, it's such a waste of energy, money and time doing something that clearly are unbeneficial and means nothing and furthermoreimportantly (furthermore + more importantly), bothersome to you (hence: asking too little and stopping like a dead end), and it's not even someone that you like, or like anymore, or are comfortable with. Stop stressing yourself like this, a'ight? The world doesn't end just cause you quit on me. It's nicer if you could have a happier life and I'd be pleased to be able to give it to you.

 

*Note : I think only those who have gone through similar situation like this can totally relate. If you haven't but you understand what I'm talking about, good for you, I got the point across. But for those who don't get it, well... just have a nice day, k? ;p Oh, and sorry if I ever did this to you. It's really necessary to apologize, you know cos I know how it feels though I meant no harm. Feel my sincerity, folks!

~ totally in a rebellious, blog-devil mood ~

P/s: The mild font colour is so the post can be read till the end in a calm, heavenly manner without affecting readers with its red hot scorching hellish emotions. Yeah, I feel very fine now :D

Syusyi oh syusyi!

Hari ini hari bejalan2 secara gila. Dari pagi sampai petang baru balik semula. Mentang2 baru gaji, bebelanja sakan la jadinya. Tapi takla sakan sangat, bagi aku la tahap sakan, kalau kau orang maybe akan cakap: tahap gitu kau kata belanja sakan, blah la!! Haha. Tobat taknak sopping lagi bulan ni, cuma window sopping saja yang dibenarkan ya!

Beli bahan2 buat sushi...tapi bila buat sushi nasiknya lembik pula. Menyamphah! (sebutannya adalah 'menyamfah', ya kawan2 semua). Yala dulu penah try tapi buat guna nasi biasa. Maklomlah beras sushi mahal, 2 kilo dalam RM19 harganya. Tadi dapat beli beras sushi dengan wrapping dia ada gmbar macam ShinChan tapi shinchan yang gumuqqq (gemok) la. 3 kilo RM22 pula harganya. (detail kan saya cerita? Mesti anda semua menyamphah kan kan kan (smbil wiggle2 jari telunjuk)... high-five dengan saya!) Anyway, arini mimpi membuat sushi yang nyaman dimakan dan cantik dilihat telah musnah suda...walau ada peralatan pinjam dan bahan yang professional (note: tikar buluh + sudip kayu + beras sushi) tapi kegagalan telah melawat dengan jayanya. Apa nak dikata...sushi suda hampir menyerupai bubur ahaha...tapi aku akan terus mencoba!

Tu jela, nak cerita pasal percubaan membuat sushi yang tak jadi almaklomlah first time buat guna beras spesel, result pun terlampau 'spesel' juga. Terus hilang semangat nak habiskan semua bahan yang ada. Hahaha...ey, esok keja. Semangat kerja luntur kejap, tapi kejap jela. Sekarang rasa mengantuk menyerang dengan slow2 tapi mampu melumpuhkan kelopak mata! It's my cue to behenti maa...ingat nak uplod gamba sushi yang burok itu sebab tau mesti kau orang gelak kaw2 punya. Ceria la sikit kan tapi gelakkan sushi je ok, jangan gelakkan tuannya!! Tapi malas pulak nak pegi amik gamba. So bayangkan sendiri jela pastu 

(a) gelak sampai berguling atas lantai (ROFL), ATAU

(b) gelak kuat2 (LOL), ATAU

(c) gelak sampai bontot tercabut (LMAO), ATAU

(d) gelak sambil berguling atas lantai sampai bontot tercabut (ROFLMAO) ATAU

(e) wat-everrrr.

 

Hint kalau nak bayang : pembalut yang renyuk, isi terlondeh, nilai estetika zero, nasi air, masterchef epic fail, muka aku (sebab aku yang buat, kalau bayang boyfren girlfren laki or bini kau buat mesti sushi otomatik akan jadi comel, tak padan langsung imaginasi dengan cerita! ).

Oklah tu saja!! Sebab mood tengah nak bebecok kat blog sebenarnya. Hahaha.

P/s : Perasan tak, setiap ayat aku berakhir dengan 'a'? (Yela aku tau la semua ayat sebenar-benarnya berakhir dengan noktah, tanda seru, tanda soal...tu tak payah kau pertikaikan (bajet orang peduli dan nak pertikaikan juga.) Mesti 'Ada aku kesah???' adalah jawapan terbaik yang korang ada. Memang pun....hahahaha...!! (T_T)

Will You?

for a moment
i entered the grey world
where every face was indistinct
and everything around was insignificant

in the midst of all that
i saw your face
the only thing that has colour
will you talk to me, will you smile?
about that i wonder

i sat and ignore you
just like you did to me long ago
it surprised me when you changed seat
what didn't i know?

you and your colour , by my side
blue jersey and white pants
vibrant against all the grey
that made me want to ask
will you bring colours into my life
like you did in my dream?

* true account on what happened a long, long time ago when i was young and still in school. Yes, a dream that stays a dream because i have a real dream of my own now. LOL. But! I can still be classified as young, okkkkeeyyy? Young at heart ☻ *pukepukepuke*

Thanks For Accepting Me...Terima Kasih.

I am a broken human     
weak and flawed
stupidity trips me often
mistakes eat me raw
I lack in so many aspects
but you're still here
sometimes i wonder, dear
will there be us for another year
when people spit
you held out your hand
when people trash
you brought me in
you are the shelter that I've never ask for
you are the cloud that lessen the heat
you are the rain that revives
you are unexpected when you entered my life
how can you know me
and didn't walk away then
are you lost, angel?
perhaps a bit far from your heaven
but thank you for staying
life's a bit more pleasant
rainbows seems prettier 
or maybe it's just me
but still, thanks for accepting me
i mean it, truly and sincerely

aku manusia yang tidak sempurna
lemah disertai banyak kekhilafan
acapkali tersadung dengan kebodohan
dan terjerumus mentah-mentah ke jurang kesalahan
aku begitu banyak kekurangan
tapi kamu masih di sini
kekadang membuatkan aku tertanya
apakah akan masih ada 'kita' di masa hadapan
bila mereka meludahkan kesinisan
kamu mendekat menghulurkan tanganmu
bila mereka mencerca
kamu tidak menjauhiku
kamu ibarat tempat perlindungan yang tidak pernah ku bayangkan akan ada
kamu seperti awan yang meneduh bahang terik matahari
kamu laksana hujan yang menyuburkan kehidupan
kehadiranmu tidak pernah ku jangkakan
dan aku hairan, bagaimana kamu boleh mengenaliku
namun tidak berlalu pergi sejak itu
adakah kamu kehilangan arah, wahai jiwa yang baik hati?
sepertinya kamu terlalu jauh dari syurga tempat asalmu
terima kasih kerana ada di sini
hidup terasa lebih mudah
pelangi tergambar lebih indah
atau mungkin itu hanya mainan perasaan
walau apapun, aku menghargai penerimaanmu
sungguh, sejujurnya dari lubuk hatiku.

Sent Through HeartMail.
Status: Pending Until Msg Read.
Validity: Subject To Both Parties.
Mfg Date: 19/01/2013
Exp Date: Subject To Recipient.
Charge: Priceless

If Only You Knew - Story Pt. 6 (FINAL)

Continued from If Only You Knew - Story Pt. 1, Story Pt. 2, Story Pt. 3, Story Pt. 4 and Story Pt. 5

"Mandy!"

   Jeremy finally reached his room, panting for air. He saw Mandy sitting on the window sill, looking out at the night sky. When she turned, her face seemed paler, washed by the moonlight. "Don't turn the lights on, Jeremy," she said softly when his hand reached for the switch. He slumped on his bed, facing her, couldn't utter even a word.

"Now you know."

   Her voice came out as a half-whisper. Even though the room was a bit dark, Jeremy could see the light outside, reflected in her expression. Her tears. She spoke again. "I am not real, Jeremy. No one can see me except you." Jeremy did not seem surprised at this. He just looked at his feet. "All this time, I acted as if people can see me, when the truth is, I can walk around your house wherever and whenever I want to. I told you I'm good at hiding, didn't I? Well, that's true, in a way. You never asked me how I got up on that tree although almost everyday I watched you during your classes. You didn't insist on knowing the answers, why I came to your house, where I got my food, where's my parents...you probably think that you didn't have the heart to ask me, but actually, it's part of the charm put on you by my existence. Because...if you ask too much, I wouldn't be able to stay with you. How am I supposed to answer those questions, right? You would be too curious to just accept it. I can't...tell you that I'm...dead." Saying the word 'dead' seemed to be really painful for her. It is, for Jeremy. He somehow felt guilty. He didn't do anything to ease her sufferings. His memory traveled back to the day when a man stared at him when he was outside the music store, talking to Mandy. He had thought that it was because of his torn jeans, but now he understood. It was because he was talking to no one. The man couldn't see Mandy. She's a ghost. That's why the librarian shushed him, and him only. She couldn't see nor hear Mandy either.

"I guess it's time to say goodbye."

   When he heard that, Jeremy sat up straight and said, "No." Mandy just looked tiredly at him. He fumbled for the right words to say. "Mandy, you...you can stay, as long as you like. I...don't mind. Really. I'm not...I'm not afraid of you."

"Jeremy, I'm dead! I should be gone by now. I should be grateful to have had my wish fulfilled..."

"Your wish?"

   Jeremy didn't quite understand. But Mandy just said, "I want you to know that I cherish your presence in my life, even if we've never even talked before."

"I'm the one who's supposed to say that, Mandy."

   Mandy laughed bitterly. She held up her hand. "See this bracelet? It was given to me to keep me here. It gave me physical form and enabled you to see me..."

"...but it is no longer of use."

   She raised her hand higher. "Jeremy, always stay strong and fight for what you believe in. But if the right thing to do is to let go, never regret your decision. Believe me, I know." Jeremy just looked straight at her. He somehow knew what was coming, but he stayed frozen on his bed, his mind blank. Mandy smiled. Such sadness in her smile that to Jeremy, it was not a smile at all.

"Goodbye, Jeremy."

    Then, she smashed her wrist against the window sill.

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   Jeremy jumped in shock, at both the act and the loud sound of it. When he blinked, there was no Mandy standing there anymore. Something glinted under the moonlight that streamed in through the window and caught his eyes: Mandy's broken bracelet. Even as he watched, it slowly fades from his sight.

   Jeremy let himself fell backwards on the bed and closed his eyes. He didn't bother to move, and stayed that way until morning came.

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   Jeremy woke up to the name of him being called. He sat up in a flash. "Mandy?"

   His mother yelled again. "Jeremy, breakfast's ready! Come down and eat." Heaving a sigh, Jeremy plonked back down on his bed. He remembered the bag Lily gave him. Ignoring his mother's call, Jeremy emptied everything from the bag onto the bed. There's a picture album, a book, Amanda's class ring, a pendant and a present box, apart from her framed photo. He opened the photo album first. They contained photos of Mandy, but when he turned over the next few pages, he was surprised to discover photos of him too. A lot of Mandy's photos were taken with him in the background. There were also his class pictures and a few from those football matches he participated in.

   Next was the book. It had maroon cloth covering and on the front cover, Mandy had written 'All About Amanda Maxson and Jeremy Dicken'. It was diary, in which Mandy had written only about her and Jeremy. She wrote that she went to all his matches, her feelings towards him and her shy intention of giving him her class ring as a sign of her deep affection. She put a small photo of him along with hers in her locket, which she wore all the time. She expressed her hope that one day, she would be brave enough to confess to him. But that hope was shattered when she found out about her medical condition.

   Jeremy took the oval-shaped pendant and opened it. Inside were his photo on the right half and Mandy's on the left. He stared at it for a moment before continuing his reading.

   On one page, Mandy mentioned about her '7 Wishes'.

♥   I hope that Jeremy is always happy.

♥   I want to share his joy, but more importantly, his sadness.

♥   Master cooking all his favorite food!

♥   I wish he would know how much I like love him.

♥   Want to be with him, even only for a short time.

♥   Maybe I want to be his wife! =)

♥   If only, if only, if only it's possible, I wish I could spend the rest of my life with him, only him!

     Jeremy was overwhelmed.  Mandy's 7 wishes was written simply and maybe a bit childish, but all seven concerning him. Of all seven, only a few were fulfilled. He couldn't be high-spirited all the time, but Mandy did make him happy being with her, although he did got mad several times. And Jeremy knew that she had gotten her number four and five wishes.

   His mother knocked and opened the door. "Jeremy, your breakfast's getting cold!" She caught sight of Mandy's things. "What's that?" Quickly Jeremy put both his arms protectively over them.

"Nothing, just my stuff. Can you leave my breakfast in the microwave? I'll heat it up later."

   Seeing his mother all dressed up, Jeremy asked, "Are you going out?"

"Yes, dear. We're invited to lunch with a friend of your father. Remember Uncle Peter? You'll be fine by yourself, right?"

"Yeah, don't worry. Have a blast."

"Thanks, honey."

   After his mother closed the door, Jeremy returned his attention to Mandy's diary. The rest of her entries all depicted her sick days, but she never mentioned it directly. Jeremy read on until he reached the second last page. Mandy wrote about the present she intended to give anonymously to Jeremy on his next birthday. At this point Jeremy stopped to calculate the days left until his birthday. Two weeks! He hadn't realized it was coming near. If only Mandy could stay a bit longer, they probably could celebrate his birthday together, he thought.

   For his birthday present, she had chosen a Rolex watch. She really indulged in it because, as she sadly pointed out the diary, she doesn't have much time left and she 'might not be around for the next, next and next birthdays'. Jeremy looked at his present, which was wrapped with a red wrapping paper that got heart shaped patterns on it. He resolved not to open it until the day of his birthday.

   On the last page, Mandy had written: 'This is where the entries end, because I couldn't write no more. My physical being will be gone, six feet under, but my feelings will live with the memories. This diary is the window to my heart, ever since my world revolved around you. Jeremy, if only you knew how much I love you...'

   Jeremy closed the book and laid on his bed. He fingered the pendant, then held it up higher to see. His smiling face, obviously cut out from his class photo, and Mandy's smiling face looked back at him. Jeremy wondered how would his life be if Mandy hadn't come to him. He wondered about the strange bracelet. He wondered about the realness of it all. Her brief presence had indeed changed his life.

   He looked up at the white ceiling and gripped the pendant tightly in his palm. "If only, Mandy..." he said aloud.

"...if only you knew how much I love you too."

- THE END -

Tak Berkesempatan Update...Menyhamphah!

Ye memang menyhamphah...dek kerana telah memulakan kerja baru-baru ini dengan penuh debaran dan getaran dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki, jadi berkuranglah update blog. Ngantuk datang awal dari biasa (biasa? selama cuti sebulan lebih ni tido macam tido pak guard syif malam). Apapun tanpa bercakap kosong dengan lebih panjang lagi, biar saya bercakap kosong secara 'meletakkan dalam kulit kacang' (put it in a nutshell) dengan menceritakan kejadian yang berlaku hari ini.

Masuk keja half day. (Oh yey~...ingatkan full day)

Membeli belah batu bertangkop. (tidaklah membelah sangat...barang2 yang perlu sahaja) Lenkali kita pergi Boulevard ok ustazah, Nissa & Murni? (heh heh heh)

Sesat sekejap cari jalan. Merujuk map sambil menumpang halaman rumah seorang makcik. (Curiganya dia sampai buat-buat sapu halaman rumah konon-konon tak kisah. Padahal halaman bersih ja tak sapu pun takpa. Mau retak simen porch dia kalau disapu lebih-lebih)

Salah masuk  kat jalan mati. Terjenguk-jenguk ahli rumah paling hujung melihat nasib malang kami. (Ngapa tengok ja dik oii? Mungkin kalau dicas setiap saat yang awak tengok tu bolehla beli baju selai kot)

Makan cikin rice. Balik rumah, makan tomyam. (Tu pun nak bagitau?? Memangla, biar kamu semua tumpang menyhamphah sekali. Sebut betuuul2.......menyhamphah!!!)

Tengok 'Kazaam'. (Sapa tengok? Yelah kau orang layan Jepun, Korea ja...x main la cerita kekanak Disney ni kan kan) Hahahaha tapi sikit ja lepas tu naik bilik ngadap laptop.

Oklah! Sekian sesi cakap kosong pendek2 malam ni! Memangla menyhamphah sebab hati nak berblog tapi mata mula pedih-pedih mintak dilelapkan, katil mula menari hula menggoda-goda supaya tido...kini kegiatan berpeleseran di alam maya ku terencat suda! Tapi walaupun menyhamphah, tetap menulis dengan rela hati~ Adieu!

Apa Yang Dia buat Tu?

Dia tunduk diam...kemudian kaki kuis-kuis sesuatu di atas lantai. Lepas tu simpan balik kaki yang menguis tadi.

Tengok orang sebelah. Diam. Pastu tengok lagi. Sepatah kata pun tak keluar dari mulut.

Tiba-tiba tengok depan. Tangan dua-dua hulur ke depan macam tangan robot. Badan digoyang, diatur-atur sikit. Pastu tangan tu diturunkan balik.

Sepanjang masa jeling-jeling, toleh-toleh pastu tengok-tengok kaki, kuis-kuis. Rupa-rupanya...

Yang dia tengah buat tu.....tu.....solat, tapi...

...solat si kecik yang ikut orang dewasa! Siap kuis sejadah ngan kaki nak kasi rapat lagi ngan sejadah orang sebelah, pastu terernya nak check badan mengadap betul-betul tak arah kiblat, tapi boleh pula check masa tengah solat. Hahaha. Bagusnya anak kecik nak belajar solat.

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Sedikit petikan:

- Dari Mutharrif Ibnu Abdullah Ibnus Syikhir dari ayahnya, dia berkata: Aku melihat Rasulullah Shallallaahu 'alaihi wa Sallam sedang solat, dan di dadanya ada suara seperti suara air yang mendidih kerana menangis. Dikeluarkan oleh Imam Lima kecuali Ibnu Majah dan dinilai sahih oleh Ibnu Hibban

- Abu Qotadah Radliyallaahu 'anhu berkata: Pernah Rasulullah Shallallaahu 'alaihi wa Sallam solat sambil menggendong Umamah putri Zainab. Jika beliau sujud, beliau meletakkannya dan jika beliau berdiri, beliau menggendongnya. Muttafaq Alaihi. Dalam riwayat Muslim: Sedang beliau mengimami orang.

.-Source Info: Hadis solat-

Pantun Berdebarrr Saja!

Esok hari Senin
Saya mau kerja
Kepala sedikit penin
Berdebarrr saja!

Pakai baju apa
Nak bawa apa
Dapat tugasan apa
Berdebarrr saja!

Berapa lama tahan
Susah senang kerja
Banyak kena belajar
Berdebarrr saja!

Tukar-tukar kerja
Pengalaman macam-macam ada
Layak tak layak risau juga
Berdebarrr saja!

Hati-hati dengan setiap kerja
Masalah dan cabaran pasti ada
Buat awak-awak yang bakal bekerja
Berdebarrr saja!

BERDEBARRR SAJA TAU TAK!!!

If Only You Knew - Story Pt. 5

Continued from If Only You Knew - Story Pt. 1, Story Pt. 2, Story Pt. 3 and Story Pt. 4

   The next day, both Jeremy and Mandy got the shock of their life when Lily suddenly appeared at his college. She was waiting outside his class when Jeremy greeted her.

"Lily? What are you doing here?"

"Is that you, Jeremy? You've changed a lot! Err...got some time to spare? I really need to talk to you. Just tell me the time and the place."

"Well, sure...let's see.. can you meet me at Joylife afterwards, 5 o'clock?"

   Lily agreed. After she left, Mandy looked agitated. "Jeremy..." She appeared hesitant.

"What?"

"Can you go see her next Monday? I w-...I want to go to the park with you this evening."

"Can't we go tomorrow? I'm sure what she wants to tell me is important, Mandy. She looked serious."

"Maybe she just wants to hang out. She'll understand. I really want to go to the park today. Please..."

   Jeremy was torn between Mandy and Lily. But Mandy just wanted to go to the park, which they can do anytime, so he decided that he would meet Lily. "I'm sorry, Mandy. How could we know that it isn't a serious matter if I don't go? I'll go to the park with you first thing tomorrow morning, okay? Tomorrow's Friday, and I don't have any classes."

   Mandy was not satisfied. However, the professor came in at that moment and she had to go out. The next time Jeremy saw her, she was on that tree branch again, looking mournfully at him. Maybe she was sad because I can't spend time with her today, he thought.

   After his class ended, Jeremy waited for Mandy but she did not appear. He then gave her another 15 minutes, but it was getting late and he figured that she was sulking and didn't want to join him. Thus he went alone to the fastfood joint. Lily was already there.

"Hi, Jeremy."

"Hi, sorry to keep you waiting. I waited for Mandy but she didn't show up."

"Mandy?"

"Yes, my friend."

"Oh, I see..."

   Looking a bit confused at first, Lily then grew serious. "I came to see you about my friend. She-" Lily stopped mid-sentence when Jeremy suddenly got up and rushed out of the restaurant. Her eyes followed him and saw that he was talking to somebody. It had started to rain and the large glass window blurred. She squinted her eyes, trying to see the person he was talking to. Who is it? She thought.

   Jeremy, in fact, had seen Mandy standing outside looking at them. She had tears in her eyes. That's why he rushed out and confronted her.

"Mandy! Why didn't you come in? And...you're crying."

   Mandy lifted up her face to look at him, traces of tears glistened on her cheeks. "Is it because I won't go to the park?" Jeremy asked, but she just kept silent. Then as she turned away, she said, "Go on. Meet her. We'll talk when you get back."

"Are you sure?"

   Mandy again did not answer. She just walked away slowly, and Jeremy knew that it would be useless to try to stop her. Besides, she already told him to go ahead, so he thought it would be better if he talk to Lily first. Knowing how stubborn Mandy was, she probably would end up pushing him into the restaurant herself if he kept on talking to her. So he went back inside. Lily had already ordered a Coke for him.

"Thanks. It's my favorite drink."

"I know."

   Jeremy looked at Lily. "How?" She smiled half-heartedly. "That's what I'm going to tell you." She took a long breath.

"I had a friend who had a really huge crush on you since high school. Her name's Amanda Maxson. She's the one who told me about your favorite drink..."

   Jeremy laughed. "I had a secret admirer? I can't believe it! Is that all? You were pretty serious about this." Lily remained uptight and continued her story.

"We, me and you, often bumped into each other before and Amanda was with me most of the time. I saw her getting excited every time. I saw her face turned red, walking awkwardly hoping that you notice her yet was too shy to get closer. Tidied up her hair, conscious of her appearance, writing it all into her diary...in short, I saw her efforts concerning you. But sadly, you seemed to never notice her. That foolish girl never had the courage to confess."

   Jeremy just sat there, not knowing what to say.

"Four months ago, I learned why. She got brain tumor."

   At this, his head jerked up. Tears had welled up in Lily's eyes. "She never told me. Only after her condition got worse did she asked to see me. We talked a lot and our parents agreed to let me stay with her these last few months. She mentioned your name frequently but sadly, she refused when I volunteered to get you."

   Lily took out a paper bag from under the table. "I hope you'll accept this, as a remembrance of her. I think it's a real pity that you didn't get the chance to know her, Jeremy." Jeremy was speechless. He took the bag and opened it. There was a framed picture of Amanda, and a small notebook. After a few minutes, he cleared his throat and closed the bag.

"I guess I better get going. Thanks for telling me about this. I'll keep this with special care."

   Leaving his drink untouched, Jeremy proceeded to pay but Lily stopped him, saying it was her treat. They eventually parted ways outside Joylife.

   On his way home, Jeremy felt totally confused and numb. He never thought that one day he could get involved in a situation like this. He walked as fast as he could, nearly running, as he couldn't wait to reach home and talk to Mandy.

- To Be Continued -

* Sikit-sikit brain tumor lah, leukemia lah, cancer lah, autumn in my heart lah...ye, tau korang mesti bosan kan? Cheit, typical kisah cinta muntah hijau kuning-kuning spageti, ada-ada je penyakit kritikal! *tunduk akur*

Continued in If Only You Knew - Story Pt. 6 (Final)

Kisah Cemas Tangki Taik

Ingatkan nak sambung tulis cerita If Only You Knew, tapi malas lah nak taip panjang2. Hari ini hari mood bersilat ala wuken (wushu+kendo), tapi tiada orang yang nak dipersilatkan yer. 

Pagi tadi dengar cerita lawak pasal ada orang hampir terjatuh dalam lobang taik tatkala sedang menjinjit buah kedondon (ye, tau, kedondong tapi saja nk eja gitu, takleh??) dengan girangnya (yalah baru lepas petik buah kedondon kan)..separuh kaki terbenam alahai...kesian...tapi sebelum kesian dan berdebar, saya gelak berdekoh-dekohhh dulu...kuekuekuekue. Berdebar sebab? Itu lubang taik aa, manyak besar woo..bukan lubang sebenarnya tapi lebih pada tangki, yang belakang umah nu....simen tangki dia pecah, apalagi terperosok la kanak-kanak malang itu...tiada sorang pun yang menyedari nasib malangnya kerana omak dan adik tengah menonton cerita di TV. Tau2 masuk dalam rumah tunjuk 'shitty leg', yakni kaki bertaik.[ Maaf ye di atas penggunaan bahasa begini, kalau tak puas hati maaf lagi ye, tiada ruangan komen dan komplen pelanggan disediakan ] Tapi tangki sebegitu memang dalam, masa jatuh memang tak jejak kaki ke dasar ye, nasib baik tangan yang menjinjit buah kedondon itu dan sebelah lagi kaki yang kurang malang sempat berpaut pada tepi2 tangki yang pecah. Fuhh...lega! Cemas kejap. Akhirnya terkorbanlah buah kedondon beberapa bijik.

Kot-kot kanak-kanak malang tetapi bertuah itu terbaca ini, jangan marah! Nama dirahsiakan, kisahnya pengajaran. Berhati-hati di atas tangki taik....hahaha~ (eh sempat!)