When Sleep Eludes...

░  The room is silent -

-  The air is still  ░

░  The inner soul is shredded  -

-  With a darkening cloud  ░

░  Energy runs low  -

-  And chest feels tight  ░

░  There's a feeling of doom  -

-  Doesn't know why or what  ░

░  Hopes hide, fear emerges  -

-  What will happen, what does one deserves  ░

 ░ Hands come together in prayers  -

-  Willing the black fog to leave  ░

░  Wanting to see a brightly lit path  -

-  Or even someone waiting  ░

░  But no matter how hard you think  -

-  There's no way out  ░

  ░  All that's left to do  -

-  Is how your head  ░

░  Recall your flaws, wishing not to be dead.  -

*Pagi ni jeles ngan aku, tak nak bagi aku tido. Daripada aku terkebil-kebil macam orang sakit jiwa tunggu tido datang, so baiklah aku terhegeh-hegeh di sini sekejap menghabiskan tenaga yang ada supaya boleh mengumpan tido balik. Anyway tetamu-tetamu sekalian, apa macam lepak kat taman aku yang tak seberapa ni? Kalau best, terimalah kasih tapi kalau tak best salahkan tukang kebun! Haha. Harap korang semua enjoy, kalau enjoy bolehlah menderma, donation box ada di mana-mana ye. Masjid, kedai, McD, depan bank...hehehehe. Oklah, nak gi cari tido balik, main hide and run pulak masa ni. Sebelum tu, tukang kebun aku saja nak pesan kat korang, Be careful of what you choose to do in life. Think more. (Sila baca dengan sound effect yang misteri dari alam mimpi) Apebende lagi, tukang kebun? Oh, tu je. Tukang kebun aku memang suka buat ayat cambest. Tu pasal la kebun aku tak terjaga. Hahahaa...tp kalau suka taman aku ni, sekali lagi time kaseyyyy! Betul cakap tukang kebun tu, ayat tu nampak je simple tapi penting. Hargailah hidup anda. Satu tindakan mampu menghancurkan hidup sekelip mata dan selama-lamanya, walaubagaimanapun walau apa pun (panjangnya huahua) yang terjadi harungilah dengan segenap kekuatan kerana hanya Tuhan yang tahu segala-galanya yang akan terjadi. Walau jatuh tersungkur ke dalam kerak bumi sekalipun pastikan cari balik semangat anda tak kira lah berapa lama nak dapatkan balik. There is always something in this life for everyone. Oklah, walaupun dh nak kul 10 pagi tapi nenek aku paksa aku tido balik ni. Katanya selagi tak pukul 3 petang selagi tu la jangan bangun!!! Haha jual nama nenek lak, just kidding..... (Merangkak balik lam selimut ala siput)

These Torturous Feelings That You Don't Understand

'We all experience sorrow in our lives...there were times when it got too much and sometimes we wonder, how did I manage to get thru that?'

        You can't think of anything other than wanting to scream      

      To have a fit, to smash everything you can get your hands on    

                    To stomp until your bones crack                   

                    To punch until your fists bleed                   

         An urge to destroy so powerful it reaches out to evil        

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                   But you can only sit down and cry                  

                      Mourn the pain in your soul                     

                   Not knowing why you feel that way                  

                    Afraid of becoming a bad person                   

                       A time bomb in your heart                      

                        A grief so unfathomable                       

        You even tried sitting motionless to stop from hurting        

                     And end up crying even harder                    

                You wish someone would come and save you              

                    Stop the sorrow from killing you                  

              Stay with you and hear what you want to say             

   Soothe the crippling cold fire and keep you from wondering astray  

                  You pray, you did, for self control                 

            For the life-saving smiles when patience is poor          

                  Until you find that you've recovered                

                The deadly fire that burned became ashes              

                      Feeling subdued and defeated                    

                         Too tired to care                            

                Thinking maybe this is your way to heal               

                             Then it starts                           

                             All over again                           

         These torturous feelings that you don't understand...