3am Thoughts

The original photo is from a Facebook page called 3am Thoughts (personal blog : click the link to go to the page). I really like it because many thoughts it shared were the feelings many people experienced but couldn't say out loud, or can't find the right words to express them. Sometimes we can't even understand what we felt until somebody put them into words that make us go, oh..so that's what i felt. And it's nice that it help us understand ourselves a little bit more. It's important to understand, because then it will be easier to know where to change or what to do for the better.

Scribbles under the stars

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Have you cried while feeling so broken and alone, so lost that you felt like you are going insane, that to stop that crushing pain you really just had to hold your own hands tightly the way two persons would, hoping for the little comfort that you so desperately needed..because that comfort, is now a stranger.

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Have you ever had to literally cover your ears, to stop hearing the conversation you wish you didn't had, or the things you wish you didn't hear, replaying again and again in your mind?

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Do you know when you truly genuinely wish for someone to have the best things in life, but your heart just proceeded to override your brain, eventually vandalizing your words and actions.

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Then you scolded yourself over and over for the stupid things you did or said, promising yourself you'll be better, then end up losing the battle to your heart in split second? Ambushed by your own self without even had the chance to think twice. Shame on you, brain.

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Do you know what it feels like to miss someone terribly, but couldn't even text properly or have a decent call anymore, because life. Life happens.

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Do you understand how it feels to have to convince yourself that something better is coming to you..

...over and over again? Each day?

After losing what feels like the best?

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Do you know how hard it is to go through routine without the most likable parts of it in it? 

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And through those times when the pain suddenly hits, your heart beats wildly and you just want to collapse somewhere to recover, but cant.

Because you are somewhere you don't really want to be doing something you don't really feel like doing, around other people who are oblivious to your struggles.

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Do you know how hard it is wishing and praying for someone's happiness while knowing that you are not a part of it anymore?

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The weight of emotions can be really crippling. Many people will agree. After all, we are just human.

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Driving Me Crazy...

Have you ever missed someone so much that tears fall and sleep evades you,

but you couldn't tell them...? 

Because there is nothing between you anymore...

Are you listening to my heart?
Are you looking at my tears?

Only one in the world, just one
I need it to be you

Why do you keep running away from me?

Why do you keep getting far from me?
Stay by my side, hold my hand
If you love me

You drive me crazy
You make me cry
You’re close as if I can catch you but when I do,
you get far away like the wind

Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy, foolish love

Can I hug you just once?
Can I say my last goodbye?
Don’t forget the loving memories,
the happy memories

Some day, when we meet again
Let’s not say goodbye

Words that my heart say, I love you
Words that my tears say, I’m sorry
No matter how much I pick them up and put them in,
words spill out

Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy, foolish love