~ Seasonal Dreams With You ~

 

When summer comes, we will walk together down the beach

To watch the small waves reach the sandy shore and wet our feet

And indulge in warm seawater where big, strong waves splash over us

Feeling the freedom at heart and all worries swept away as the sun sets

Building up courage to face tomorrow together.

When autumn comes, in our long coats we shall stroll down the streets

To watch the world and its beauty within the grey skies and the fallen leaves

Continuing the easy strides in the wood, all yellow and red and brown

Knowing how green it would be again when the time comes

Like our hopes, renewed each day and our relationship gets better in every way

When winter comes, we sit by the fireplace, warmed and comforted from the cold

Silent as the night might be and so white the falling snow makes the world outside

But inside, we talk meaningful conversation, the glow of the fire on our faces

Accepting the opportunities as a rare gift, a big loss to pass it by

The lessons we learn from each other walk each step with us in life, till we die

  

When spring comes, we celebrate the joy fresh little flowers bring with them

Emerging everywhere, putting a smile in every faces we see

Stirring up emotions in many hearts, making the challenges of life bearable

And each new day will be welcomed with open hands and broader perspectives

In new light we will see things, making us more positive

♥ With you, my life settles in full view
♥ And from all the obstacles and hindrances that come my way
♥ You teach me not to withdraw
♥ I would not, because though you are no angel and as you said
♥ That everyone is not perfect
♥ You are still part of my strength and no matter how well i can swim
♥ When i suffer cramps you will be there as my buoy
♥ And so, while with you my life settles in full view
♥ Without you, it crumbles to pieces and it may take an eternity before I heal...

Merciless Sea

The black water churns around swallowing everything in sight and having little mercy.
I am lost in the midst of sucking waves in what i perceive as the sea.
Can neither swim nor fly, i am nearly sinking.
Nobody came, nobody's voices i can hear, nobody's around floating.
This is a dream. This is nearly not a dream. This feels like real.
Panic came and took my hand while i reach for the safety of nothing.
Is it the time to give up my life?
Not to such lowly situation, no? Without even a fight?
I have the will to fight, but not the path-illuminating light so that in itself makes nothing right.
Hope cried its last tears as it clung tightly to the deepest root in my soul and i myself cried what felt like my last tears in seeking the faith that had been snatched away by the merciless sea.
 
Bright is the dark future and dark is me.
How i wish to kill the unforgiving sea to stop it from imposing such helplessness! 
But here i am. Tossed about listlessly, silently, angrily.
Yes, it's raining and the storm is coming.
The perfect nightmare, without sharks, with killer whales from Moby Dick.
What will i find under the sea not with my bare hands but with my bare skeleton?
Many things, but of course, i would be just another ghostly victim wandering around, despairing and torn.
Cursed  to not being able to see another like me, doomed to haunt forever alone.
 
Merciless sea, you continues to swallow another soul and another, and another in greed.
Never to be satisfied. But you will be beaten.
When you fail, the last laughter will be mine and by the likes of me the victory ground will be walked upon.
Though you take me now, the fire of revenge burns eternal.
Merciless sea, i will haunt in comfort, knowing that you will never rest easy.
We might be each other's shadow, but you'll be a hundred steps behind me.
I'm your creator, after all. 

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Air yang hitam bergelora menelan  segala tanpa belas kasihan.

Laut menebarkan ombaknya membuat aku hilang arah dan kelemasan.

Aku semakin tenggelam... tiada dayaku untuk berenang, apatah lagi terbang.

Tidak seorang pun datang, tidak satu suara pun yang ku dengar, juga tidak ada walau satu tubuh pun yang dihanyut ombak di sini

Ini adalah satu mimpi! Ini hampir-hampir bukan satu mimpi. Tapi aku merasakan seolah ini semua adalah satu realiti. 

Cemas datang menyambutku tatkala aku teraba-raba dalam kegelapan, menjangkaukan tanganku mencari keselamatan.

Sudah tibakah masanya untuk aku menyerah kalah pada kematian?

Tidak semudah itu kan, tidak tanpa berjuang kan?

Hanya semangat yang menyala masih tidak mampu menerangi jalan dan menunjuk arah

Sumbu harapan menitiskan air mata terakhirnya saat ia cuba bertahan dalam kalbu dan aku juga menitiskan apa yang ku kira mungkin air mata terakhirku dalam pencarian untuk kekuatan

Kekuatan untuk terus percaya

Kekuatan yang telah dirampas dari aku oleh lautan ini yang tidak memiliki walau setitik belas pun

Maka malaplah cahaya dalam diriku, dan bersinarlah pula masa depan yang kelam itu

Membuat aku begitu ingin membunuh lautan celaka yang begitu berkuasa saat ini

Tapi aku terus dilambung ombak, tidak mampu bersuara melaungkan kemarahan dalam hati

Hujan menerpa mendahului ribut, membina mimpi ngeri yang sempurna untukku

Apakah yang akan tulang temulang ku temui bila tubuhku mereput di lantai lautan ini nanti?

Mungkin, macam-macam.

Tapi aku cuma akan jadi satu jiwa kosong yang merayau dalam keputusasaan

Dibelenggu sumpahan yang tidak memungkinkan aku menemui jiwa lain sepertiku lagi, dan menghantui kuburan gelap ini keseorangan.

Wahai lautan yang kejam! Dengan ketamakan mu kau telan satu demi satu jiwa yang kasihan.

Memang engkau tidak pernah puas.

Tapi akan datang satu hari di mana kekalahan mu datang menuntut haknya.

Bila kau tersembam nanti, kemenangan itulah yang akan jadi milik aku dan jiwa-jiwa seperti aku.

Di bumi ini kami akan kembali bebas!

Aku terpenjara dalam perutmu sekarang, namun api dendam tidak akan pernah berhenti membakar

Aku selesa menunggu saat itu di sini, kerana aku tahu engkau laut yang takkan mampu tenang

Kita adalah bayang-bayang masing-masing, tapi kau akan sentiasa berada seratus langkah di belakangku

Kerana kau ada hanya dengan adanya aku.