Makes Me Happy

Be happy. Find your happiness within.

Being quirky and weird usually make me happier than being normal because i do what other people don't and sometimes it is more rewarding cos i find out what won't happen in ordinary circumstances. Either i  got applauded, labelled, scolded, etc...rather than get caught up in the in crowd and being oblivious of the small details that keep us grounded and perceptive in real life, i prefer the eccentric me. The me that although often overlook many things, also notice things that others around me don't, things that people dont notice me noticing. I like observing people. Sometimes i do something just for the benefit or their doubts, or just to see their reactions. It's quite fun, feels like im doing a research on human behaviour. Analyzing people, even analyzing myself. 

Happy is freedom. Freedom is happiness.

It's precious freedom. Being able to do something not of norm and having peace of mind about it, not being afraid to show people the kind of person you are. Of course, not many of us are at that level yet. We are still afraid of so many things, but some of us are better at hiding it. But the longer u hide, the more tiring it become.

So every chance you get to do something random / unusual / weird / eccentric, maybe you just grab it and do it. If it makes you happy, if it is not wrong, if it doesn't jeopardizes your life, if you think you can get away with it, if you are willing to take the risk (haha), why not?

Get crazy be happy, and these dogs be showin you how we do it.

I think as we get older we become more serious as we shoulder more responsibility and have more to think about. We slowly lose the child in us. We have less energy, less time and more worries. Salute to those who are young at heart regardless of how old they are. But of course, being young / young at heart is no excuse for being irresponsible.

Too happy? Puke rainbow if you must.

But you know, i am wondering whether being quirky and weird will lessen our credibility / charisma at work? I can't help believing that your actions speak for you, meaning that if you do your job well, it might be a small issue if you wear a clown wig to work today and then a Goku hairstyle tomorrow ;D ... i'm just saying. But then again, we can't control the way other people are, we can only control the way we are...so maybe we can forget the wig and the Goku hairstyle... (T_T)

Still can goof around and not acting my age, 'marbellous'!

It does make me happy that there is still energy in me and some kind of outlet for my cartoonish behaviour / soul. Despite the extreme extent of seriousness and anxiety i descend into sometimes, i can still happily goof around ;). And it is a blessing that sometimes some small things that make us smile come into our lives just like that, unexpected, unavoidable, suddenly noticeable when previously they are unnoticed.

Enough said ;)

Me Vs. Them

Thanks For Accepting Me...Terima Kasih.

I am a broken human     
weak and flawed
stupidity trips me often
mistakes eat me raw
I lack in so many aspects
but you're still here
sometimes i wonder, dear
will there be us for another year
when people spit
you held out your hand
when people trash
you brought me in
you are the shelter that I've never ask for
you are the cloud that lessen the heat
you are the rain that revives
you are unexpected when you entered my life
how can you know me
and didn't walk away then
are you lost, angel?
perhaps a bit far from your heaven
but thank you for staying
life's a bit more pleasant
rainbows seems prettier 
or maybe it's just me
but still, thanks for accepting me
i mean it, truly and sincerely

aku manusia yang tidak sempurna
lemah disertai banyak kekhilafan
acapkali tersadung dengan kebodohan
dan terjerumus mentah-mentah ke jurang kesalahan
aku begitu banyak kekurangan
tapi kamu masih di sini
kekadang membuatkan aku tertanya
apakah akan masih ada 'kita' di masa hadapan
bila mereka meludahkan kesinisan
kamu mendekat menghulurkan tanganmu
bila mereka mencerca
kamu tidak menjauhiku
kamu ibarat tempat perlindungan yang tidak pernah ku bayangkan akan ada
kamu seperti awan yang meneduh bahang terik matahari
kamu laksana hujan yang menyuburkan kehidupan
kehadiranmu tidak pernah ku jangkakan
dan aku hairan, bagaimana kamu boleh mengenaliku
namun tidak berlalu pergi sejak itu
adakah kamu kehilangan arah, wahai jiwa yang baik hati?
sepertinya kamu terlalu jauh dari syurga tempat asalmu
terima kasih kerana ada di sini
hidup terasa lebih mudah
pelangi tergambar lebih indah
atau mungkin itu hanya mainan perasaan
walau apapun, aku menghargai penerimaanmu
sungguh, sejujurnya dari lubuk hatiku.

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You See Me, But...

                                                                                                                        

you see a person who is more tactless than you are
 

you see a person who is more dependent

you see a person who is irritatingly timid

you see a person who is hardhearted

you see a person who is surly

you see a person who is me

you see a person who is unmotivated

you see a person who is irresponsible

you see a person who doesn't care

you see a person who is a nuisance

you see a person who has less potential

you see a person who has little use

you see a person who easily forgets

you see a person who could be taken advantage of

and who could be sneered at

you see someone who is not important

you see someone who is sometimes me

you see not the person i see as me

i see myself in the lights of positivity

even when i sink lower than you are i will still surface eventually

in my head sits a balance scale that is one-side heavy

bearing all your misperceptions of me

well, maybe it can't be changed that you think of me that way

i can still feel better because i found about us something that is fair

that even when you think of me as mere dust on your shoes

i don't bother to explain or gain status higher than your boots

cause i know there's others that think of you that way

and you're just not worthy of my day .